1) What are three mistakes someone could make on the first date with you that would automatically make you turn down a second date with them?
Not talking enough. I do not want to sit in quiet the entire time. Nor do I want to do all of the talking myself.
Taking me somewhere that I’m not intested in. Granted, i don’t think you should take me only to a place that I would enjoy but i don’t want to go to the races or tractor pulls or something loud where we can’t talk. A Hockey game, a nice resturant… the park. Someplace nice.
If we are getting along great, laughing and having fun. If there is mutual flirting and you like me – then KISS ME. I don’t think that we should be making out or anything but just a kiss.. it’d be nice.

2) Pick an animal that best displays your personality.
Oh my, i have no idea. What is something that is really nice that has a really angry side when you piss them off?

3) If your SO stopped having sex with you, how long would you stay?
I’d stick around and try to figure out why. There must be a reason behind it. If it’s because he doesn’t want to be with me anymore, then fine… i’ll go. However long it takes to find that out.

4) Are you more passive or aggressive when the relationship becomes physical?
It depends. I can be both – but i think mostly passive.

5) Have you ever been INSIDE a store that sold adult themed toys and videos?
Oh yeah. I love those freakin stores! I want to open one!

Bonus (as in optional): What percentage of women do you think are capable of handling being in a “friends with benefits” relationship? How about men?
I think it’s about 50/50. Some girls want more out of it, some dont. Men are the same way. They will be okay with it until the girl starts talking to or hanging out with other guys. Then they’ll get all posessive. Girls will do the same thing. It’s just.. you’ve got to go into something like that with complete understanding, i think.

Tada! Picture.

Pearls are a girl's best friend.

12:48amJ
hello lila
12:48amLila
Hey, J! How’s things?
12:49amJ
oh thank GOD you are online
12:49amLila
lol.
12:49amJ
well i am not doing right now..i need help very urgent
12:49amLila
ok.
is everything ok?
12:50amJ
i am not ok
12:51amLila
oh no!
12:51amJ
i need your help pls
i am presently in london uk and i got robbed in the hotel i was staying
is like gun here right now
i am in a public liabiry trying to look for help on fb
12:52amLila
call ur parents
12:52amJ
yeah i did
need help financially
mom send some money to me but the exchange rate is vey high
can you pls help me out pls
is like gun here right now
12:55amLila
willing to answer a few questions to prove to me tha tyou are who you say you are?
12:56amJ
just talk to robert now but he does not have much on him
why should lie about my life
12:58amLila
What is ur oldest sister’s name and where did she go to school?
1:00am
J
S (spelled wrong)
S
1:01amLila
school?
1:01am
J
what do you mean school
1:01amLila
What school did she go to?
college
1:02amJ
mi
1:03amJ
i need to get out of here soon
this not time for question
1:04amLila
Well, since you fail on that question…
1:04amJ
we are talking about life and death right now
i sarah
1:04amLila
Well im sure… since you are not J, not in London and don’t even know who your oldest sister is
1:05amJ
she went to college in michigan
1:05amLila
There are a lot of colleges in MI
1:06amJ
lila
1:06amLila
and you forgot about your sister that died when she was born. Amy – remember her?
1:06amJ
i am not my self right now
i mean a close gun short
1:07amLila
It just makes me sad that you forgot about Amy.
1:07amJ
what amy
this is not time for joke pls
can you help me or not
1:08amLila
Why would i joke about your sister that died?
1:10amJ
i cross my heart i am not my self
1:10amLila
you are not J?
1:11amJ
it was a close short
1:12amLila
you aren’t making sense. I’ll call ur parents and let them know where you are. They are in town this week for Granmmas bday. Don’t forget to call gramma when u get a chance. Maybe they can ask Uncle Max & Aunt Donna to help you? Want me to ask them?
1:14amJ
dont care
1:14amLila
If you dont’ want me to, i wont. I just figured if anyone could help it’d be them
1:15amJ
i have my reason for asking you
1:16amLila
On phone with Uncle Max. He wants to know how much you need… and where to send it.
1:18amLila
He’s on his way here to give me $500 for you. Just tell me how to get it to you.
1:21amJ
tell him to send it via western union in my name
1:21amLila
they won’t be open around here til morning
1:23amJ
what time is it over there now
1:23amLila
1:30 am
1:25amJ
can you send it to me when you wake up then get back to me with details
1:26amLila
yeah. i think they open at like 8 am. I’ll be up before that anyway so i’ll be there ready when they get here. I’ve never done this before. Maybe Uncle Max should do it…maybe he’s done it before.
1:26amJ
lila
1:26amLila
Do i just send it to “J Springsteen” in London?
1:27amJ
yeah
1:27amLila
works for me. Um… do you want me to just find you on here?
1:29amJ
send it to this email address zaraman@operalmail.com
1:30amJ
zaraman@operamail.com
1:31amLila
okay.
no L in operamail
1:31amJ
yeah no l
1:34amJ
are you still there
1:35amLila
yes uncle max is here
he asked if $250 is enough
Aunt Donna said they can’t send $500, just $250
1:36amJ
400 will be ok
i will refund when i get back
1:37amLila
Will you make it back for Grammas birthday party sunday?
1:38amJ
i should be home tomorow
1:39amLila
Yay! Its been so long since we’ve seen you. The boys will be happy to see you too. You’ve not seen Thad since his surgery!
1:40amJ
lila i will check my email tomorow pls i am countin on you pls
i have to go now
1:41amLila
I gave the info to Uncle Max. He promised to get it done
He’s done it before. I was nervous.
1:41amJ
so how do i get the info?
1:42amLila
He is bringing me the paperwork right after.
1:42amJ
ok
1:42amLila
He said he’ll be here at 8:15, so i’ll send you the info
thats okay, right?
1:42amJ
ok thanks
1:42amLila
ok
look for my email tomorrow. It’ll be there
1:43amJ
i have to go now
thanks
1:43amLila
Ur welcome. If Jenny is with you, tell her hi for me
1:44amJ
bye

It honestly didn’t take me long to figure out this was a scam. At first i laughed because J’s family is very religeous (J is my husbands cousin. his mom and hubby’s mom are sisters) and the way he wrote “thank GOD…” made me think he was mocking me for having answered a pole question earlier that I do not believe in god. I caught on at about “i am presently in london uk…” which is funny because J is a pilot for a large airline so it wouldn’t be unheard of that he was in London, but it just immediately sounded fishy. So i thought i’d mess with him a bit. Unfortunately, Jake no longer even has a facebook. That I am able to find at least. I guess that’s for the best. Though a bit unfortunate.

Anyway, J never had a sister named Amy or one die at birth. He did have an older sister that passed, but she was in her 20’s when that happend. There is no “Uncle Max” or “Aunt Donna”. There is no Jenny. There is no “Boys” or “Thad”. There is a Grandma, but her birthday was last month…and the last party we had for her was last year when she turned 90.

The Today show did a show on this VERY subject – with all of the exact details i have here.
http://today.msnbc.msn.com/id/26184891/vp/33189545#33189545

And while ur thinking about what you just read, try to figure out what these phrases mean:

“Is like gun here right now” x2
“I mean a close gun short”
“It was a close gun short”

Oh. And tonight i got an email:

James Robert:

hey lila how are you doing? you promised to getback to me with information have been waiting to read from you pls…..can you pls respond to my email ASAP

“I do not want to be the leader. I refuse to be the leader. I want to live darkly and richly in my femaleness. I want a man lying over me, always over me. His will, his pleasure, his desire, his life, his work, his sexuality the touchstone, the command, my pivot. I don’t mind working, holding my ground intellectually, artistically; but as a woman, oh, God, as a woman I want to be dominated. I don’t mind being told to stand on my own feet, not to cling all that I am capable of doing but I am going to be pursued, fucked, possessed by the will of a male at his time, his bidding.”

That I could stop time… just to breathe.

1. Have you used put anything edible on (or in) your partner’s body and then eaten it?
Can’t say that I have. But the scene in 9 1/2 Weeks in front of the refridgerator is HOT!

2. Have you ever had an AIDS test due to reasonable suspicion or hyperactive imagination?
Nope. I’ve been tested 3 times – with my kids. I dont think i’ve done anything that would require me to be tested for that now.

3. Have you ever fantasized about someone else other than your partner while you were engaged in sex, oral sex, or mutual masturbation?
Um. Yeah… i think we both have.

4. Have you ever engaged in sex, oral sex, or mutual masturbation while in a moving car? A car being driven by someone not engaged in the sex, oral sex, or mutual masturbation?
Oh. Yes. two words. Road. Head.

5. Have you ever had sex so many times or for so long that one or both people involved runs dry?
I hadn’t run dry, but He did… and laughed at me when I wanted to continue. I got mad and went off and did it myself.

Bonus (as in optional): Name 5 things an unplanned (or planned) visitor would find in your bedroom?
Pictures around my mirror
Sex toys
Dirty clothes
Jewelry
My tiny closet.

I canceled my World of Warcraft account. And today i deleted it off my laptop. Even though I still have like 5 days left to play on my account, I sort of got bored with it. When I first started, i had people to run with. Honey J and I would play all the time at first. They went back to work and I was home. I played a lone. J played a lone. Honey barely played at all once we started to pull away from him. I was going to get to lvl 60 and stop but J bought me to lvl 70 and has expressed interest in paying to have my main character moved over to Honey’s account but i’ll still be playing alone. And i wouldn’t even be able to play with honey when he did play.

J and I got pretty close in the spring. I could talk to him about problems i was having and such. That has all abruptly stopped. I honestly want to explain it better, but i know J occasionally reads this and I don’t want it to sound like I am explaining myself like I want him to read it… does that make sense? Like… i’ll say things sometimes that are directed at Hubby because i know he’ll be reading. I don’t want this to turn out like that. I don’t want anyone (J or Honey) to think that I “only wrote that because J would read it.” And i’m afraid that it will only turn out like that. So… i keep it to me. J and I don’t talk anymore. It is what it is.

The next play is coming up in about 6 weeks. I have tickets and posters and postcards and programs to do. So it’s not like I’ll be doing nothing. And I have Cafe’ Murder going on. So i’ll be okay. And i talk with Connecticut 2 or 3 times a week before he’s gone to bed. And i’ve got a new book to read. It’s pretty funny so far. “I hope they serve beer in Hell” by Tucker Max. The movie is coming out soon. I bet the destroy it like they did to Time Traveler’s Wife. UGH!

Mother-in-law got a job. She might give me an ‘in’ to where she’s at! I’m for it. I’ll work whenever they need me. I just… need to work.

OMG!! Red Wings HOCKEY Starts in about 10 days. We have had plans for about 5 months with W & J to watch game 1 with them and have Chicken Parm for dinner… first 2 games are at 3 PM on Friday and Saturday, Oct 2 and 3. In Sweden. Hooray For HOCKEY! <3 <3 <3

Time to read my book. Thanks to W for getting it on her Kindle for me… i can get her kindle on my ipod touch and read her books.

I just want something to go good for me for about a week. And not spend my days feeling horrible. Maybe the book will keep me company and make me laugh.

1. You can flip a switch that will wipe any band or musical artist out of existence. Which one will it be?
Taylor Swift. Everyone thinks this girl is the greatest thing next to sliced cheese. I think she’s no better than any other teenage princess who has everything handed to her on a silver platter. She needs to just go the hell away. Seriously! 

2. You seem to be having an excellent day because you just came across a hundred-dollar bill on the sidewalk. Holy crap, a hundred bucks! How are you gonna spend it?
I’ll put it in my tin box and save it along with the rest of my money. I save it and hide it and one day I will be able to go and do soemthing with it… like buy things for the kids.

3. Rufus appears out of nowhere with a time-traveling phone booth. You can go anytime in the PAST. What time are you traveling to and what are you going to do when you get there?
16th Century England. I’d save Anne Boleyn and punch Henry in the Face. Fat bastard.

4. What is your favorite curse word?
Oh no. I want to say Fuck. Yes, Fuck… I love using it because it can SO get the point across.

5. You have the opportunity to sleep with the movie celebrity of your choice. We are talking no-strings-attached sex and it can only happen once. Who is the lucky celebrity of your choice?
Once? No fair! Must have 3 chances. First time is always awkward. Second time is to make it better and 3rd time is to verify. I don’t want to have one time sex with a celeb because what if it sux? But lets say we are guarenteed that it is going to be mindblowing… Then I’m choosing…. Yeah, Jake Gyllenhaal.

Bonus (as in optional):You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What’s it gonna be?
Shit. Um. The ability to suck up the superpowers that everyone else chooses. I’ma be handing out radioactive vegetables to all my friends and family members who’ll eat a vegetable and i’ll tell em all what it’ll do too… just so they will eat it. It’ll be awesome. If i offer you a vegetable, take the damn thing!

Funny story – When i was about 4 years old, i could read some words. I found a bottle of some green  shit and i could read the word “Food” on the lable. So i ate some. It was horribly repulsive. Worst thing i’ve ever had!! I took it to my mom, asked her what would happen if i ate it. To scare me into not trying it, she told me that if i ate it, i’d die. I flipped out! Bawling. Was going to die. I  was certain of it. Took my mom forever to calm me down enough to believe she didn’t mean it.
I’m still alive.

A variation of “Half Naked Thursday” but clothed and no longer Thursday. Please forgive me.

Found out today that my friend is preggers!! We were joking about it just a week or so ago – about how she moved away to California (from MI) and her sex life got way better and of course, NOW she’s going to have a baby! I hope that I will be able to go out towards the end of her pregnancy or after she’s had the baby to visit. Her hubby is probably being deployed in February.

Today was hubby’s birthday. Happy Birthday, Hun. *Hug*

Got all addicted to World of  Warcraft. I’ve cancelled my account. Not that I didn’t WANT to play,  mostly that in a few weeks (or sooner) i’m going to be busting my arse working on stuff for the next show and I really don’t have time to sit and play WoW all day. And… I need a job. You hiring?

I spend my days pretty quiet these days. Kids are back to school, Hubby working. Sometimes i get to chat with Connecticut, but not often enough. I know that he’s okay so that’s good. Sent him some porn that he ordered a few weeks ago. And some Teddy Grahams. Doesn’t seem to need anything, so i’m not going to spend anything. I think he has about 9 people sending him stuff. He wanted to Skype this week, but i wasn’t much in the mood to do that. Sorta bummed because it was the only night he had a few hours alone with his roommate at work late. I hope he took care of things himself. Maybe i’ll help next time.

Don’t talk with many others. The guildies from WoW. Saw W for the first time in 10 days today. And her unhusband J. I saw J last week but on his first day off from work but i’m still not so positive he knew i was there.

It’s nice to be home alone again though. For now. I’m sure i’ll get sick of it and crave adult interaction. I get that when Honey comes for lunch at noon, but 30 minutes out of 8 hours. Those 8 hours will slow down considerably once I am no longer WoWing.

Taking time off of the theatre group. Sort of really over it. They totally effed me over. The play before mine had 5 performances. They had roughly 120 people come to those performances. My show had 4 performances. 979 people (unofficially) came to see my show. We barely spent any of our budget. $1600 for costumes and we spent $200. Sets (paint, lumber etc) we spent about $2400 (our budget was $2000) I honestly don’t know the rest of the numbers but they basically told me that my show LOST $4000. LOST?! Epic. FAIL! Oh… you overpaid the music director? You paid a pianist? You paid the volunteer choreographers? Well, there is $850. With all of the EXTRA money we had left over in the budget, Honey was told to go spend $800+ on new tools that we needed… Apparently my AWESOME producer is a damn failure! She told us at the Post-Production meeting that we went over by about $150. Liar! I will never work with her again. It will be A. a Miracle if i work with them again and 2. A miracle if they last another 2 years. No one gives a shit anymore, and I’ve lost mine… So.

I do like theatre though. That’s what sucks. I really like theatre. I love directing and producing and stage managing. But not when everyone else basically sucks. When I do it ALL. I’m doing a show now… seriously it’s 10 pages long. Dinner theatre. I’m a Hippy. Yay! Will be fun AND i get a chicken dinner. Who’s to bitch!?

I’d show you a pic of my tits, but i think you’ve seen em… Sorry. And I have some new ones too… Should I?

I seriously am a boring person. I have nothing to say yet I have everything in the world to say. I fail.

1) If you were to only live until the age of 50, how would you live your life differently?
No, I think i’ve lived my life perfectly for if i was to die at age 50. I will see my children grow up and start families of their own. They would be 36, 32 and 28. The only thing i’d be sad about is not seeing my grandchildren grow.

2) Are you settling in your job/career?
As a Stay-At-Home mom, sure. School starts today… (this leaves time for many more pics)

3) Are you settling with your significant other?
No, i am not settling. If i didn’t want to be here, I wouldn’t be. I am very happy with where I am. Regardless of whether or not he wants to believe it. We might hit a few bumps now and again, but i’m along for the ride.

4) How important is your family?
My immediate family I would do anything for. A couple of my sisters (T & E) and my brothers (M…and M) I love dearly. My parents are… something. But i have a couple of sisters (A – who thinks dinosaur bones were put on the earth by the devil who wanted the world to believe that creatures lived on the earth before man so we wouldn’t believe in god and C- who is one of the biggest bitches i’ve ever met. And she has the n ot so attractive (ugly) face to go along with it) And a few brothers (M & C) who won’t help themselves… I love them all… but I’m not going to go out of my way to help them when I can hardly get them to help themselves. It just isn’t worth it.

5) If you caught a neighbor peeping in at you while you were naked or having sex, would you close the blinds? (assuming you live in a city and can see into other buildings).
No one wants to watch me have sex… But i suppose in the offchance that someone feels the need to peer into my windows to watch me naked or having sex, then I hope they enjoy the show. I’m not going to stop what i’m doing to shut my curtains… especially since it would be a chore to begin with to be able to see me through them.

No Bonus?

Okay fine, here… Bonus.